F O R G E T(regret)

[adia]

Hey there, Superman.
I think I left some of my
photography at your place.

c l o s e d // k a d e n

[julian]

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yeah, ya did. don't worry, though. i put it in my desk.

[adia]

Thanks.
I've just..kind of been losing my mind
for the past two hours, pacing around
restlessly waiting for my life to blow up
in my face..

c l o s e d // k a d e n

[julian]

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waiting for your life to blow up in your face? haha, they're just pictures, aide. you should know they're safe with me.

[adia]

I have no reason not to trust you.
I wasn't talking about the pictures anymore.

c l o s e d // k a d e n

[julian]

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oh. well, what did you mean, then? is everything alright? are you okay?

[adia]

I don't know.
I guess so.
Did you talk with Lucy yet?

c l o s e d // k a d e n

[julian]

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you guess so? why don't you know so? uh, yeah, i did...

[adia]

I don't know so because I don't
trust her with my secrets. It was hard
enough, for both of us, going through
everything the first time. We're still suffering
side effects here, Kade. It doesn't make it
easier that I don't trust her or like her..

I couldn't have you fighting over me though.
I couldn't put you through anymore pain, Kade.
I meant what I said the other night..when I was drunk..
I still love you, Kade, and I never got my heart back.
i don't think I ever really wanted it back.

It wouldn't have been fair to have you defend her
against me. She's your best friend. I wasn't going
to sit here and act five. If it was my idiotic regrets
and mistakes kept in secret form that were going
to repair the damage I'd caused you two, I wasn't
going to keep them..

c l o s e d // k a d e n

[julian]

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i needed her to know, adia. she's my best friend, and i mean, you've got abby. i didn't have anyone. she won't use it against you, she respects me more than that. and she's better than that.

i guess i just don't understand why if you loved me so much, that you would just up and leave. not a word, not anything. that's what hurt me, adia. /sigh what am i supposed to do with this?

i know, and i'm grateful for that, i really am. i value my friendship, it's the longest i've ever had.

[adia]

I left because..I couldn't accept anything.
I couldn't deal with anything.
My intentions were never to hurt you.
I wanted to .. punish myself .. but it
all turned out selfish, and hurt you
more than anything, and that kills me.

I talk to Abby, it doesn't mean I have her.
The only ones that know what we've been
through, and what we're going through is us.

I miss that, Kade, us.
If I could take it all back,
I would, in a heartbeat..

c l o s e d // k a d e n

[julian]

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i know you would, aide. but, i'm not talking about changing the past, because what's done is done. i'm talking about right now, us, right now. what do you expect from me?

[adia]

I want us to be okay, to get
back on track, and slowly work our way
to where we were, before I made a mess of
things. I want us, Kade, because it's clearly
obvious we both still own each other's hearts..

but..I know it's not fair of me to ask that of
you so..I really don't know..

c l o s e d // k a d e n